Trusting Christ

My heart has softened from what it used to be.  I'm convinced that the hard-heartedness I often struggle with is due to some kind of lie about God, that He's not kindly disposed towards me, that His offer of grace has some hidden obligation.  The Bible says in Psalm 34:8 "Taste and see that the Lord is good..."  Well I have and I have seen that the Lord is good.  I want that back, that trust I had in God and His character.  I want to know that once again.

Still Alive

It's been a while since I've posted.  My life is still on its downward spiral; I'm still out of work, still wrestling with depression due to fatigue from sleep apnea.  I let my troubles clobber me, and thereby make my reality even worse.  It's occurred to me though that maybe my depression is spawned of excessive worry.  And maybe what I need for that is trust in God's forgiveness and providence.  I need the peace that passes all understanding, that comes from knowing I have real peace with God; His forgiveness, His love and His acceptance.

I missed church last Sunday because of some car trouble (all I need).  I wish I would have taken the Sacrament; Christ promised that in it we are eating and drinking His flesh and His blood.  It's an absolute promise of forgiveness and salvation, and I have not appreciated it as I should.  The sacraments are gifts, God's overflowing forgiveness and grace.  I hope I can make it next Sunday.   Christ promised that "whosoever's sins you forgive, they are forgiven."   Of all people I need forgiveness and the assurance of forgiveness.